fuck and run

my feet are frozen, as icicles cling to my steel beating heart banging out a calypso dream, my naked eye saw it all coming down. the fear clings to the back of my throat, nightmare warblings, unable to utter a sound, my one eye could see you emerging from the shadowy disconnection of daybreak. my teeth were chattering out an s.o.s., only no one was there to break the code, my jaw locked. i was so confused. you gazed into my eye, searching out curiosity, i found something in your eyes. we did not have the time to ponder, everyone has left, our worlds collide in an effervescent explosion, bubbling red skies. just another piece of your galaxy, from far away, erupts passion on my barren shore. my seeker, my code breaker, my dreamer, you have awakened me.

will you be there when i need you or will you fuck and run? whisper your sweet charity into my tone deaf ear drumming out the pounding of your heart beat. you mean everything to me, how does it feel, to mean so much, but nothing at all. we wanted to find love, you knew my middle name was exes, you got lost. you shoplifted my heart when i was a child, but now we'll float on these broken remnants. someone told me to go inside, go girl, run and hide, before someone blows your god damn brains out. i couldn't hear, so what, this is kind of about you, this is kind of about me. take your life as it comes, your broken bundled up remains.

i turn to walk away, right through you, i saw right through you. you didn't think i would show up on the other side of you, now that i am leaving, i missed you. i don't understand. one lover stays, okay, the other one stays, while the other-other one walks away, yhea, well, you're just so scared to lose. not scared to lose one at a time, but every other at once. i lost sight of you when we entered the city of your universe, blue azure scarred veins laced the streets, paved the roads. i don't want to wait to be trapped in your skin, bubbling blood pumped sewage drains to erupt into my locked jaws, so i jump the cavern where your heart once was. running now, i trip on my own eviscerated entrails, my jaw snaps, slamming into your hardened chest cavity. my wide eye searches the now vacant orifice for any sign of an egress. i spy a tunnel, and slither like a serpent, on my belly toward the light.

you know what they say about a light at the end of the tunnel, it usually means there is a train coming.

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