i've waited once before, you were already leaving. how can i still be wearing your tattoo? circles in circles that circle around again, dancing dervish knocking on our kitchen door, you can go now. circled around and circles and circles, stop spinning around in my dreams, over the bridge, over the hump. i need an island, somewhere to go, somewhere to bury you. i stand with my feet in the sand, sinking beneath the surface of the shore, your wave washes over me; like the outgoing tide, pieces of me are taken away with your waxing and waning current. the full moon of my heart is blue, blackened by your eclipse, my piece of mind is carried away by fiddler crabs.
fallen, fallen, fallen, let me gather up all the stars in your eyes in my arms, i would like to know where the angels have carried you. a sound is brewing in the air tonight, and the only answer whispered in the wind is, away. i can go, but i don't want to stay, i want to run away, falling away. you will never see me the same, once you know the truth, you will be the one to want to run away. i was able to put all my cards on the table, would you like to take a look at the sullen girl who has washed ashore? it is calm under the wake, in the blue of my oblivion. why does it hurt me to feel so much tenderness? i ought to put a hole in your head for making me live underneath your deep blue wake, calving glaciers crash from your frozen soul, you are so beautiful.
i walk into the rising sun with nothing more than the shame from the night before. you used to say everything is alright, what do you want to hear, she's in your bed. where do you think you would fit me in? where is my beautiful?
you decided to suck me into your nightmare, crying out, i have fallen below all the shit you have spoon fed me. what the fuck do ya know, i have come out more alive than dead. half buried heart unearthed by your bitterness, there has got to be a way to make it sweeter, like sugar in a tank of gasoline. you know i sleep alone, no darling to call my own. your darkness is no stranger, it blankets my soul, lonely is all i do. i am not afraid of happy endings, i'm just afraid my life won't work out that way. tomorrow never dies, but today always ends. stay awhile, stay as long as you can. sorrow is the bitter pill you choke me with, some things i didn't bury, i don't want to be alone with you.
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